Day Two: Evening Life in Camp
Ote in North Canyon |
We paddled through a few more rapids before pulling in for the day at Fahrenheit 451 Camp situated on a narrow strip of sand and rocks at the base of a shear wall on the outside of a bend in the river. It is so named for the temperatures it feels like to those who camp there later in the summer. As it was, it still felt like an oven until well after the sun went down. A supper of grilled salmon steaks, rice and a spinach mushroom salad was quickly dispatched. There was a quick discussion of the next day's plans before the clients
Not wanting to bake myself, I stayed up with the crew while all other clients including the Germans went to bed and spent the evening talking and writing in my journal. Ote was the only crew person joining the clients to bed at an early hour. Ote, short for Coyote, which I later learned was her actual name, is the wife of the owner of Grand Canyon Dories. She is a real character and is extremely knowledgeable on all things canyon related with lots of stories to tell. Having left my watch at home for the duration of the trip, I had no idea what time it was when we finally left for our beds. The crew always sleeps on their boats or on the two baggage rafts which float on the river. A couple times when rain was likely, the dories even had tents to cover their occupants at night.
My bed for the night was a roughly seven foot long by three foot wide patch of powdery white sand between some rocks some ways off from the others. Kind of like a coffin with a view, for above me the stars were shining bright. Upstream between the canyon walls I can see the Big Dipper and downstream Orion. Tonight only a sliver of moon is shining, framed by the downstream canyon walls, but it still feels like a bright flashlight right in my eyes. As I sat on my bed, I wrote down the wildlife tally for today which included four mountain sheep, lots of lizards over lunch, squirrels and a lot of 8" rainbow trout. Bronco had tried fishing for them earlier before supper with a fly rod but nothing was biting. I have always envisioned the Colorado River as it was in the past, big and muddy but the waters fed from the base of the dams is an emerald green that reminds me a lot of the Buffalo River in Arkansas.
Red Monkey Flower |
During supper, I had spent some time talking with one of the baggage raft paddlers named Nick who was about my age. Like most of the crew, he was a ski instructor during the winter in Colorado and bounced around between there, the Grand Canyon in spring and fall and the Salmon River in Idaho during the summer. Right after this trip, he had part of the day off and then he was doing another dory trip for three weeks. This was his fifth year of living this lifestyle and though he was as poor as they come off the river or ski slopes, he was wealthy in my eyes. Later during the trip, I was even offered a job of rowing a baggage raft on the next trip and working my way to being a dory oarsperson after putting in my time. Never in my life was it ever been so hard to say no.
I had a life that I had left behind with a stable job that made decent money. It was waiting for me when I got off the river but wouldn't be waiting for me if I delayed my arrival for another month. It was challenging and rewarding but just didn't have the curb appeal as paddling the Colorado and Salmon rivers for a living. Besides, I wasn't nearly a good enough skier to teach so not having a winter income would really put a crimp on my income. Later during the trip, Nick would lose his grandmother's old point and shoot camera to the river. It was old and could easily be replaced at a cost of $50 or so but to Nick, it was a monumental blow to his finances. I just couldn't bring myself to get into such a position. Still to this day, I occasionally think of what might have been but a loving wife and beautiful daughter who wouldn't exist had I taken the job, always quickly snap me back to the path I chose and now wouldn't give up.
Not just the wild nature around you but also a time of reflection. It was as if the canyon was asking fundamental questions such as "Who are you?" and "Where are you going?"
ReplyDeleteIt changed my life in many ways, but had I let it, it could have changed my life completely.
DeleteYou observed well and took copious notes.
ReplyDeleteMostly these are all directly from my journals though I have edited them for clarity and other reasons since. Normally I don't write so much in any one daily entry but during this trip, away from all other distractions and sometimes several hours or more to kill in the evenings, I wrote a lot more.
DeleteIt is so fortunate that you kept a journal and took photos. Our memories fade over time yet this sounds like it just happened yesterday. My dad used to say that his favorite job was working for the Forest Service in the Cascade Mountains--but that it wasn't conducive to having a family. So, he became a teacher instead.
ReplyDeleteBeing a oarsmen for a Grand Canyon dory company certainly wasn’t conducive to starting a family either.
DeleteEd, it is funny how these things work. I have always come to ask people how they arrived at the jobs they have. For at least one of our guides, it was a similar story: he loved camping and hiking and made the plunge the year previous (just coming out of The Plague as well) as he decided "Why not try?" He had no responsibilities and could work a side job or two for extra income.
ReplyDeleteFor me, I actually did the "live out my dream thing once - and failed, miserably. I sometimes reflect what life would have been like if I had stayed the job I had at the time - knowing (as I know now) that I would have likely been laid off the year after that. There are no guarantees, of course, that things would have worked out better, although we would be within striking distance of paying off our home now and much closer to our families. But then again, we would not have had all the experiences we have had since then.
I’ve often thought about what if I had said yes. Back then it was a bit easier to imagine other scenarios but now twenty years later if I try the what if asking it becomes impossible to imagine one. I take that as a sign I made the right choice.
DeleteThe choices we make are powerful. You do very well.
ReplyDeleteThey are though I’m glad I didn’t know that back when I made that choice.
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