|Dawn on the Buffalo River, Spring 2016|
In preparation for writing our annual Christmas newsletter, I was going through some photos for the year and thought this one was appropriate to perhaps include. My newsletter is often a reflection of the past year, the highs and lows, the good and bad, though I try to keep it about the highs and the good things since it is Christmas after all.
Life has always seemed to balance out for me. This year was a rough one with my mom's diagnosis with a cancer that can't really be cured, only beat into submission. However, I have spent more time with my family this year than probably any year since I was younger than eighteen. So here as I contemplate the newsletter, I still feel my world is balanced and I look forward to the year to come.
This fall while helping my dad bring in a record harvest in my mom's absence, I often felt much older than I was. My knees, one of which I've had multiple surgeries on over the years, felt stiff and arthritic at times when I was hopping onto or off of various tractors, bins and other pieces of equipment. I'm sure a lot of it has been due to the extra weight that always seems to creep back slowly when I'm not looking. I suppose I was just too busy eating to notice. So I've been on a health kick for a week now and after the initial onset of aches from being active, I've gotten to the point where I feel much much better again. One week isn't enough to undo the last several years of damage but it is a start and now that I feel my age again after just a short stint, I hope to continue on until I fill younger again. I doubt I will ever reach the 20's again but late 30's would be nice!
My youngest recently turned four and due to her birth date, won't start kindergarten for another couple years. We hope to put her into a preschool class next fall to start learning how to socialize with others and to get her exposed to all the germs so that when she starts kindergarten, she will have some immunity built up. This means that I will have more time on my hands. I still have projects left to do around the house and will always have some, but I feel I need to do something a little more productive. This fall spent on the farm has awakened within me a need to perhaps get back to my roots again. I've been contemplating going back to work on the family farm at least seasonally as needed. I haven't broached the subject with my parents yet but I'm pretty sure they would be happy to have more help so they can do other things.
So I'm approaching a new year and I don't know what will happen. I do know however, that by the end of next year, my life will be balanced as always.